She is coming home!!!

My daughter comes home tomorrow!! Well, Wednesday in the wee hours!  I'm so excited!  Just when things settle into our "regular" schedule, she leaves!  But, we will enjoy her for a few days!!  It is nice seeing the kids hang out.  So, I think she is taking a vehicle down with her.  I worry about...what?  I really don't know.  I guess us moms say that, knowing full well that all is fine.  So, I take it back!!  It will be good for her to have a vehicle there.  I can't imagine being so far from home without a vehicle.  She wants to take her Daddys truck!  That is reassuring, cus I'm sure he will be there with her.  Tomorrow is going to drag...work...I dont think I will be able to sleep 'til she arrives.  I'm so glad that her fiance helps her  (us) out. 
So Friday I went out with a few friends.  It was really nice.  I hadn't gone out and felt so ok.  Saw a lot of old faces from my kids school days.  I'm not as lost as I thought I was.  My acquaintances sound like they are (some) worse off than me!  I wonder how things would be if he was still alive.  I don't believe that I would be me, as I am now.  So would I be that little mormon wife??  Hmm, probably not.  I was at the brink of rebellion, anyway.  I don't know how he would've taken my decision to separate myself from the church.  I'm sure it would've been an issue; a workable issue, I would hope.  The bummer about that is that I introduced him to church.  I talked him into, but after he got involved, I didn't truly want to be  a member.  It's strange.  But then again, I'm speculating if I had left the church while he was alive.  I could've just stayed and learned to be a miserable hypocrite as most members are. I don't think he would've let me be in a miserable situation.  He did really care how I felt about things and wanted me and the homefront to be a happy one.  Do I miss him!  But tomorrow is a new day!