Real life "Weeds" PartII

Have you ever watched a program, movie, TV series, YouTube or whatever and thought to yourself "HEY!! Wait a minute..."  Being a widow is often a story line.  However, actors seem to get it wrong somehow.  I will admit there have been plenty of great films on how it sucks to be a widow: you feel like the life has been sucked out of you, but it's someones' sick joke, but then it's not, but then it's your real life!  It goes something like that.  I try not too often to put myself in that "role", as society isn't up to talking much about the subject, meaning emotionally and financially.  Of course if there is a character, with many flaws, and comedy, then it's a TV series, a hit no less.  I don't believe many of us would volunteer to go through this roller coaster.  But then again, everyone alive now is on a roller coaster ride of sorts; laughing, crying or screaming!

A chuckle for lunch

It really wasn't lunch; I went to gas up company car.  I was at  a stop light, making a left onto the west/east main street in my town.  On my left corner, waiting for pedestrian light, were two Latina mommies, one small boy (3-4 y.o.), a little girl (1.5-2 y.o.).  I was admiring the little girls curly black hair.  I wondered how in the world that mommy got her to stay still long enough to braid the top part!  Too dang cute!!  In front of the four were a few cars waiting for light, they were heading straight (eastbound).  Behind the third car was a firetruck, then three more cars and another firetruck.  Light turns green and the vehicles begin to move eastward.  The two children were so happy at the sight of the big red truck!  Then, the diesel firetruck, shifted into another gear letting out a huge, I mean HUGE cloud of smoke....right at the kiddies level.  The four were caught in this billowy, stinky diesel cloud.  The kids started to rub their little eyes and spit; how does diesel taste?  It was funny.  The mommies were laughing and trying to console their little ones!  Aw, mommydom (is that a word?)! The second firetuck driver tried to make up for it, waving at the kids, but he got a nice chuckle, too! 

I'm a Rabbit!!

According to the Chinese Zodiac, I am a Bunny!!  HA!

Class continuation

Belly dance class was fun!  Its so fun to see us women (we think we know how to dance!) not being able to keep up with the instructor.  She (instructor) is in great shape.  Curvaceous!  Sign me up for another set of classes!!  So dinner last night was less than "delicious".  Sorry kids! On the upside, I was given flowers and a card!!  A sweet friend came by the clubhouse and dropped them off.   I'm still sore from the weekend!  It's not what it sounds like!!  It was a burn day on Saturday and I burned!!  Sunday I decided I know how to prune trees!!  I found my loppers at the bottom part of the property, where shed is.  The loppers are old and not sharp, but I still used them.  It's too expensive to buy new pair.  So I wasn't able to move my arms in an upward fashion, I knew I had worked out.  My dogs were with me the two days I spent outdoors in the yard. The garden and crisp air is comforting to me.  It was nice to just be.  It doesn't matter what situations are at hand; the problems are irrelevant.  I am trying to be in that state more often, sometimes (more than not) it's a struggle.  I am so like my daughters! (Yes me like them!) My girls like to spend time being alone.  I see they get lost in their thoughts and seem content.  My oldest daughter has been like that since an infant;  the younger always has had her big sister as an example.  They are quite alike. 

Real life "Weeds ?"

So, I'm thinking that I'm not too sure about what I'm supposed to do with a blog!  My kids are gonna love this!  So I decided to start to tell my story.  How life can change on a dime, making you crazy, thinking that there truly isn't a God, or whatever you believe in. In desperation it is our nature (atleast mine) to find something to hang on to.  The millions of questions that you ask yourself, the imaginary what-ifs, and the real outcomes of any situation that we middle aged parent of, oh no joking, seven  kids might spin in our head.  Of course the outcomes and the situations also vary from day to day.  The severity of the situation might be so drastic one day to the next, depending on how your day is going.
I don't like the word "widow".  It has a real downer label, albeit, it is a downer!  When my husband died, I referred to his passing as leaving; he left; on vacation; or something that really did not state the obvious.  He is gone; not coming back in human form in my lifetime.